i was bored so i thought of looking for some interesting stuff on the internet… check these out!

item #1 - for people, men especially, who would love to try a new way of eating a sumptuous (and i mean mouth-watering sumptuous) meal…

http://skirmisher.org/weird-shit/japanese-resto-lets-you-feast-on-naked-ladies/

item #2 - chinese soldiers show some camouflage-d love on V-day…

item #3 - korean toilet signs (DOs and DONTs)

For more interesting news and pics, visit weirdasianews.com!

it’s been a while since the last time i wrote about the updates in my life… ang totoo ang dami-daming nangyari sakin na halos di ko na alam kung saan ako dapat magsimulang magkwento… may mga pagkakataon na gustung-gusto kong ilabas ang nasa loob ko pero di ko naman pwedeng sabihin sa lahat ng tao… syempre dapat pinipili ko kung kanino ko dapat sinasabi ang mga bagay-bagay… nakakainis talaga kapag hindi ko nai-express ang feelings ko… tuloy sa ibang tao ko nabubunton ang frustrations ko sa buhay… ang daming kulang sa buhay ko na dapat punan… may mga chances na dumarating, pero di ko naman alam kung paano haharapin o kung paano tatanggapin… nagmumukhang naka-battle mode ako parati dahil sa reluctancy ko… it’s like i’m always holding back, afraid of unknown things… i have been praying for certain things to come at the right time… may mga dumating pero i don’t know how to ‘know’ kung yun na ba yung right time… ang tendency is it all slips away… pano ba naman kasi malalaman kung nasa timing na ba ang lahat? ayoko namang tira na lang ako ng tira… tapos di naman pala talaga hinog yung mangga… gets nyo ba? ayoko din na binibitin ko sa ire yung mga tao… kumbaga, kung kelan choks na masyado yung moment eh ‘vanished’ na ang next drama ko… obviously, lovelife section na ang tinutumbok ko… ang daming harang sa daan… para bang checkpoint dyan sa may sirawan banda? kapag gagawa ako ng move eh maghihintay pa ako ng reaction sa mga atribidang sanggigilid para i-assure na tama yung ginagawa ko… marami din kasi akong gwardiya, mga engot na nagbabantay sa bawat galaw ko… may mga buwaya pang abot-langit ang taas ng kilay pag nakatingin sa direksyon ko… ano ba yan, pano ba pumatay ng demonyo?!!

nakakainis talaga, one time nung nag-e-emote ako sa song ni nina… "someday someone’s gonna love me, the way i wanted you to need me, someday someone’s gonna take your place…" punyemas, i’ve been forcing myself to relate to the lyrics… pero kahit anong gawin ko, di pa rin tumatama sa target… pano ba naman, talagang no one’s gonna take ‘your place’ because wala man ju’y ‘you in my life’ in the first place… or kung  naa ba’y ‘place’ na na-fill or ready to be filled…hindi rin ‘nya’ naman talaga nakuha yung place na yun… di man naging ‘kami’… at di man ako sure na talagang ang love ‘nya’ ay ako lang… because all this time, di ‘nya’ man talaga kinlaro sa akin yun… kasi kung naging consistent lang yung words tsaka actions ‘nya’, it would have been the end of all this confusion… haaay, and yun na nga… i left… well, it’s more of ‘i escaped!’… nakakapraning… but the bad news is… di lang pala ako ang um-eskapo, ’sya’ din pala gumawa ng own drama… it wasn’t a surprise to me at all… i knew it was coming… and i accepted it naman… pero i hope for better things to come… God will lead the way… and i think i’m right on track… love for myself na lang ang uunahin ko ngayon, as in sobrang love for myself ang kelangan ko dahil hindi madaling layasan ang lahat na na-establish mo na… speaking of established connections, umuwi na yung mga amoy-kimchi kong mga estudyante… san pa, eh di sa korea! nahirapan kaya ako magturo ng english sa mga yun… pero naging close friends naman kami lahat kahit na kulang sila ng limang paligo sakin… ang maganda lang eh branded lagi suot nila… so, ngayon pa-email-email na lang kami… minsan may mga collect calls, pero syempre sila nagbabayad… hello? kahit nga isang sachet ng palmolive naturals shampoo with coco milk eh hindi ko mabili para sa sarili ko, pagbabayarin pa ako ng phone bills for IDD calls? ang chaka-chaka naman nun…summer na naman… nag-advance beach trip kami 2 weeks ago sa costa marina, samal island… it was fun… very short pero unforgettable din… cool kasi mga kasama ko, game na game… tsaka alam ko na pano laruin yung card game na ‘bluff’, thanks to jp who, btw, stopped working in seattle effective language center… and kudos to aicar din pala for the yummy sample of their dusk till dawn specialty… di ko nga lang sure kung may pinagkaiba ba yung kinain namin sa ibang chicken/pork barbecue… oh, how i miss my mum anita, my sister barbie, and the other teachers in the academy… i still get to see them pa naman pero it feels different now na part-time na ako… parang i don’t belong anymore… tsaka wala na akong sariling space doon…waaah! room 15, i miss you of all things!

am i that hard to love?

why is it too hard for you to make me happy?

i only need a little lovin’ !

a simple greeting with a little smile!

i don’t demand roses!

i don’t demand sweet notes!

i don’t want any stuffed things!

i only need your words to comfort me…

but then again, i know you’re a brute…

you only care about yourself!

you spoil me with your boyish charm for a day,

and leaves me hangin’ by a thread the next!

can you be more unpredictable?

i made all effort to look my best on this day,

yet you never cared to turn your head!

so this is absolutely unacceptable!

but i will have my moment of victory with you…

watch me do my own thing…

you will regret letting this uber-ly romantic day pass!

i will make you fall down to your knees, i promise!

this is supposedly my first valentine with you…

yet, you treated it like another dull day in your life…

i am not just any fish in the sea…

i’m a mermaid, i am special…

you should know that by now!

my flavor of the week!

this yummy thing is called kim beom… he’s a seventeen-year-old-actor in south korea…

i accidentally found him in one forum while i was looking for a hairstyle for my new look this year…

hmmm… *drools* i know you want him too!

p.s. one of my korean students in seattle is also called beom/bom… but she’s a girl… she said it means spring in korean…

a day after christmas, i went out with zoe (my sis) and corina (a friend)… we watched zsazsa zaturnnah at SM and, boy, it was a blast… i was drooling over zsazsa padilla’s lipoed body and pops fernandez’ skinny legs… ash inn! tulo pati dugo ug singot sa akong kaibog! i can only say one thing: PUNYEMAS! DOLPHY, ANG SWERTE MO!

and rustom also sucked the guts out of me… siyeeet, he looked better than carmina villaroel! ganun ba talaga yun, nagiging kamukha mo yung ex-wife mo after annulment?! basta, pasalamat sya bakla ang loka! shokla, lami kaayo kaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! patilaw bi!

early this morning i had my lungs checked again for pneumonia… the x-ray result says negative, and the doctor thinks that my coughing is just an allergic reaction to dust and all that is dirty… in short, damak daw ko… char lang!

nadisgrasya akong 800 sa check-up, x-ray, tambal, kaon, plete, ug pedicure while waiting sa doctor… manang, pobre na kaayo ko pag-exit nako sa hospital… nisamot pa gyud ug sa dihang natagbuan nako akong kinugos… lagapak na pud ang 100 kay pinaskuhan kuno… peste,  lupig pa ang taxi meter sa kakusog sa patak sa dutch!

anyway, i’m waiting for my bonus sa sk thingy nako… putragis nang seattle, 500 ra akong natete sa 13th month pay… arang kasensilyo na lang jud! kulang pa na plete padulong toril! waaaah, kelangan nako ug DOM now na!

speaking of DOM… my korean student told me about her husband’s male friend who’s itching to dig a brown vagina… and guess what, she sounded as if she’s recommending him to me! helloeur! giluod akong bitok, nakipag-shake hands pa naman ko atong ungoa! bahong kimchi! langsa! pwe! purya! 

up to now, i’m still trying to figure where my freakin’ chest had gone… my x-ray result says negative chest, and i’m betting it translates to missing chest or something so i thought of looking for it the whole week… waaaah… (T_T)

i still have this terrible cough, and i can’t seem to spit out the phlegm coz it’s holding on to my lungs like a baby monkey on a momma gorilla’s back… shit, what have i done to deserve this?! i’ve tried a lot of medications and still this thing won’t get out of my system!

i can’t enjoy fruit shakes and ice cream… i can’t even eat sweets! how can i have a merry holiday when all i take is medicine plus water?! i even have a strong feeling that i have TB already… my goodness, i can’t die now! i’m one bad grass (masamang damo?), an evil child, i need more time on earth to convert!

i’m shedding pounds and i dunno whether to be grateful or not… well, i’m happy to have worn my 27-inch-waist pants which i last wore when i was 18… that’s a big yehey, i know… but hey, it’s not just weight loss. there are also night sweats plus vomiting. sadly, they are symptoms of pneumonia!… that can’t be!… huhuhu… they say pneumonia needs a couple of months to cure, but i can’t take a leave that long. i’ve got plenty of work to do! i’ve to tend to my constituents in our barangay and also to feed the minds of kimchi-eating aliens with english grammar…

wait, i know i have to make health a priority… so early tomorrow, i’m going to the doctor and have him/her check my lungs… i was supposed to go last weekend but i got so busy that i wasn’t able to squeeze in time for a check-up. and after, movie dates with my cousins and friends… yahoo!

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i went gift-shopping at Victoria Plaza last week and i bumped into May Princess, college classmate. she looked quite different, tired and thin… she’s normally thin but, now, thinner… it’s a good thing i didn’t pursue applying in call centers because of so much stress it can cause me. poor girl, she’s planning to resign any day now.

another friend, miko, was fortunate enough to meet bryanboy in flesh at Greenhills last week… waah, mga bakla! kainggit! bryanboy is a fabulous fag blogger, check his site at www.bryanboy.typepad.com … 

one of my korean students, chester, gave me a gift… such a sweet tot… a cute teddy bear! <kyopta>! i gave him a ballpen and a big pencil in return… hehe… pobre man ko…

we had an opening ceremony for our new office at landco last saturday… and since my boss is korean, he invited all korean students plus his churchmates… i had the chance to witness a korean worship/blessing and it felt super weird listening to their cult-like christian songs… the only word i understood in the whole duration of the ceremony was their ‘amen.’

corina insists for a movie marathon tomorrow… waaah, mamobre ko ug samot! someone please adopt me beh! now na! huhuhu…

christmas won’t be too merry anymore this year. i had just lost my greatgrandfather (november) and uncle (december). should we celebrate? how? they say that people shouldn’t mourn over someone’s death, instead it should be thanked for coz it only means that they’re free from sufferings and all that.

but i have a problem. they both died of pneumonia plus other complicated illnesses. i have been in contact with them before their bye-byes. i have a cough, it’s more than a month now. i’m afraid i might have gotten this from them coz if it’s normal cough then it would have been cured after a week or so. i’ve tried a lot of medications and they’re not working so well. i went to the doctor, she said acute bronchitis. i had my x-ray, it said negative chest. what the heck was that? is there also a positive chest? i don’t understand the explanation coz my mom was the one who talked to whoever in the hospital. i’m coughing so hard, and it’s embarrassing specially when i have my tutorial classes. it’s giving me a hard time. sometimes when i wake up early in the morning, i can’t breathe properly. feels like i’m dying or something. shit. i’m planning to take a leave from work so i can rest coz the doctor says it might be because of stress. blah. whatever. i want all the phlegm out of my lungs! now na!

anyway, i hope everybody will have a merry merry christmas and a happy new year. (T_T)

Issue #1 - i prayed for one but it doesn’t really mean that i’m ready. or maybe i am. so unsure. it came, and now i’m struggling. i don’t know how to handle it.

questions fill my mind. is it my own malice that gives color to things happening around me? am i taking things too personally? the answer would be a big yes, obviously. but i refuse to take it.
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Issue #2 - i know what normal is. normal means acceptable and usual. well, i know it would depend really on someone’s background — values, traditions, and what-have-yous. but normal won’t apply to what i have experienced.
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Issue #3 - my parents would always tell me to share whatever i have… but it’s a different thing when you share something with a person who’s shown you signs of admiration… it would have been better if i managed things voluntarily, but it was all more of an unwanted obligation. it’s funny. hmmm, not really… i wanna laugh it off, but that’s too fake of me. this isn’t that serious… yet! slowly, i can feel it creeping towards me. i guess it’s easier to just let things fly by, don’t you think?

you’re inches away but i can’t seem to hold you…

could you be more subtle? i’m losing my mind…

don’t be harsh please, you push me too hard…

i want to let go, honestly, but i don’t need to…

tell me it’s okay, i beg of you!

life is full of surprises…i know… but why do you have to be one of them?

i think of so many things these past few days… i think about my work, family, friends, plans and you…

okay, so obviously i am so into you… like you invade my mind every minute of the day… i always daydream of you and me in a white sand beach cozying up in a hammock while listening to Mariah Carey’s "My All"… so sweet, sensual, intoxicating… 

but why did you have to leave me like a little beggar on the road?! i only want a bit of your oh-so-precious time… but you are selfish! brute!

you left me maimed… i dunno what to say or how to react to your surprises… i felt dumb… ’twas so silly of me to want you… you were in front of me, yet i couldn’t do shit about it… this just sucks all my guts out…

i guess the friendliest word next to fuck is okay… so i’m just gonna say OKAY! it’s all okay with me… but honestly it still sucks not being able to own you! yeah, OWN you like a toy dog! punyemas, had i known you’d slip through my hand like sand, i would’ve been nicer… but i think i wasn’t so you ran away with that "pusang-gala"! pakyu man! you hit me hard with that!

i know, i should’ve known better!!!

enough of this crap… let me just tell you… i’m now gathering all my energy to flush you out of my system… i’m working hard on it!

well i guess this letter ends here…

Sincerely,

MOI